Heartbroken man watches porn

I want images -

breasts, thighs, lips, hips

of other girls

to paste atop yours

'cause I can't peel you off my mind. 

 

Haunted by that beautiful face,

I fear and yearn and rage.

I want to kill myself again,

and again, I can't

for the same reason as Nietzsche,

when he went to that brothel

and kept knocking on a mirror 

with his head.

 

We are so fucking alone and spent 

we don't even truly have our selves left 

to hurt.

 

 

- Mukta 'Asraar'

© Mukta Asnikar